PRC babe

recently i keep telling myself, should not be a problem to find a singaporean girlfriend. now, i need to think twice. i found out that, foreigner is quite good looking compared to singaporean girls in the sense they maybe on par but they will still have one edge over. i just don't know why! i just feel that, i'm better off with a foreigner girlfriend. like, malaysia(got class the ah lian), china( great looking girls, i swear!!) phillipines( sweet looking student, i freaking swear and swear!!!) taiwanese( i tell u i dun mind giving up what i had in singapore and fly to taipei and settle over there!!!) see, sometimes, is it true that singapore girls hang themselves up and sell?? well, maybe i got 2 bad encounter with singaporean girls thus lead me to this thinking. first(borrow money never returned, i don't mind, but don't even make a effort to meet up or so) 2nd(been good to her, yet hang up like u wan her, u have to bid stuff like this) so well, i decided, i go find my foreigner girlfriends first then see how everything moves. haiz...

utter mess

today i shall declare i will not be selling anymore of my cards. i receive out of the heaven price, which i cannot accept, and i did offer reasonable price and upon transaction still want to slash more. fuck you all. take me for a kid or what?! think i just play ygo card game for one day huh?! never mind, i shall not pursue this matter anymore. i will just keep my 2 album in my cupboard and let it gather dust. i won't be touching cards so often anymore regardless of what cards is out or what the trend is. even if i don't want, i rather burn it then sell. not i don't have money, is just i crave for more. i need to fund my schooling and holiday. and peoples press down the mother fucking price till so low u cannot even expect a 3 year old kid to accept. i have cards. meta ready cards. but there isn't a need to expect more when i tell you I'm selling. I'M THE ONE SELLING, I DECIDE I WANT TO SELL REGARDLESS OF THE PRICE BEEN OFFERED OR HAVE I ACCEPT IT. JUST BECAUSE I SAY I WANT CLEARANCE, ALL MOTHERFUCKING ASS ACT LIKE PIRHANA, NEVER SEEN HUMAN BEFORE. I CURSE ALL THOSE ASS, NEVER START A BUSINESS, BOUND TO BE A FAILURE. want to con me or scam me out of the blue. suck it!

and now, my life is in a utter mess. i don't know what the fuck i want. no effort put in when i decided to join new balance real run. why?! i shall run till my last breath. damn. i'm damn tired. should take a break. i want to be alone in my small room of mine. shunning from the outside world. never accept anyone(especially gals) into my world. fancy i bought a gift for her, she don't even bother to tell me when to meet up to pass her. wtf?! i need her to try it on. if the size doesn't fit, i can changed for her. but to no avail, i decided to burn off the cardigen. it's not cheap. lastest design by e sprit. it cost me 79.90. a cardigen for women. fancy i found the reason why should i buy for her yet she don't appreciate. fine. i shall not perform any stupid acts for women anymore. it's damn vexed when you thought everything is moving what you planned, a halt came by. i'm sick of women. damn sicked. please leave me alone... i just want to be alone....

outing

yo, update my blog. ok start from yesterday. yesterday went ms to meet mei yi and mei zhen for dinner. have some steamboat, and well, very long never taste BBQ steamboat le. previously all went to bugis dat zhong hua to have those purely soup de steamboat. last nitez was well, quite enjoyable. cause i very long never eat bbq steamboat. haha. weird thing is, i don't know what food to to pick up when doing my routine rounds of picking up of food. so well, grab some. after wards went the durian there, u know durian, take some photo "photo not yet uploaded i supposed" and suddenly something hit my mind.

it goes like this :" why i pick up accounting as my study courses for my upcoming year?" i look at UOB building and the answer came. "how it is to feel when u are actually working in a high rise building and looking down the building through the window of your office?" it feels great. tremendous feeling. holding a cigar by that time " who knows" smiling at yourself, telling yourself, you've done it. now is maintain at where you are and try to push yourself for greater heights at the same time. The feel is different. it gives u a satisfactory answer to your life. my decision is to embark on a career of my life. i may hate math, failed in math, failed in accounting, but that does not stopped me caused i believe " failing is part of success" "embark on the journey u chosen, never look back" just like this afternoon, i suddenly thought of going fashion study. "be in the trend is somethings i hide from others". "bringing out my style is somethings i agree with myself"

i feel that, i only lived once. dat pathetic particular once. so well, "planning is road to success" i will always remembered my quote "its not a matter of how long you take. its a matter of how much you learn". after durian, i went to tm to meet ah soon for movie with a couple of frenz including roger, zenon (his galfriend) haslinda and her boyfriend. see, by actual fact is watch hangover, soon say buy wrong ticket, buy overheard. but well is a good show. a nice movie. and well.. afterwards go home and slept.. overall "its not nice to know something which shouldn't be let known at the moment" "point a gun at me, i'm still sealed"

founded...

well, last post was like, 13th of July. Today is 28th. well, recap. 14th of July was my day, went to merchant court, have our buffet dinner. well, overall was alright. but one thing i don't really like was, the particular perankan dishes for the night. i don't like perankan dish. don't know why. but, i still managed to finish what i have took. afterward move on to wine boss, have about 6 bottles of wine, then went home. next day, 15th of July, down. went to see doctor early morning, diagnose with "over drinking of alcohol and food poisoning". got 2 jab, bedridden for one day. feel sucks. anyway,before i went to see doctor which is after i went home, "i thought i a ready left this world". feel really like in cloud seven. seriously... i thought my life reach a peak where by i need to make a decision on my life, if i don't, i will just end it. if i do, i will soar like a eagle in greater heights. life at the very point to me is very vital. it determines whether i live on or not. seriously. my life breathing point. i could just topple over the wall just in front of my door step, which is 6th floor, fall flat and that's it. but well, luckily, such thing never happened. and that's where peter is here today. sitting in front of his com, typing this blog.

good things happened. i started planning out my diet table and workout table, targets, 5 months time, smaller version of Micheal phelp, is smaller version, not the full scale. well, I'm turning quite fair nowadays, maybe consistently sticking in a air conditioned room makes me fair, I'm going back to my tanned version. one cheers. planning on holiday trip end of this year. well, if circumstances don't allow, i won't mind traveling on my own. after all, i need a break. a break. you see, is a break. two cheers. going back to school next year. apmi kaplan finance : diploma in accounting followed by degree. three cheers. fourth cheers is I'm out of my tangled complicated nonsense relationship. I'm on my own again.loud cheers!!!! ya!!!!! it's always good to be on your own, although it's not healthy but well, it takes time to find someone you truly love. is not easy. god don't give you as you wish. you find. through numerous obstacles will you find your true love. well, I'm shagged out. too tired, work don't play a part, my consistently of playing games late night cause me to be like this. OK. well. turning in. nitez to everyone.

4 more hours to go

oK. a few more hours to my 24th birthday, well, the eve was like, boring. stay at home do house work, play FM2009, throughout the whole afternoon, boring. nothing much to do also. tried prototype, quite fun, (gory, gruesome, messy, bloody) this is my description for my prototype, guys out there, love the above word description for prototype, then you have to try it out. it's indeed what i state. well, boring again. don't know what i want in my life, must wait till next year for my plan to kick off. going back to study. well, it's always good to study more, enrich one man knowledge and at the same time, more education built a bridge for you to move further. Nothing much to blog le. Tomorrow ba, tomorrow after my dinner, will update some detail. maybe photo also. haha.

long time bo blog

wow, it seems it's been some time i last update. anyway, alot of stuff to update. starting from my national championship yesterday. result for the day is 3 win 2 lose. well, my last 2 game, i kinda go haywire, don't know what i'm doing so well i crash. funny is, throughout the whole event, i vs 4 hybrid deck. see, is 4. when so many black wings and arcanite beat is flying, i vs 4 hybrid. the most hard to beat hybrid is hime neko aka( plant cat). but well it's aready over. currently, i'm working on a machine deck. hehe. 2nd to update, my birthday coming. wow, so fast. dunno how to celebrate this year. 3rd, i'm going holiday at end of the year. hopefully can be a 7 day 6 night trip. destination, taiwan. last but no least, i'm going back to school next year. kaplan. study accounting. haha. prefer to sit still doing my own stuff all day long. that's me. u see.

Joke of the day :" project runway, prize, 30 k usd plus one year coverage in elle magazine".

a man wtihout a soul

this few weeks, i'm drifting and drifting. no goal to aim. no place that i truly want to go. i feel like leaving this place once and for all. i feel that, i'm all by myself again. living in a space of my own. all my friends, especially those that i cherish the most, seems to be drifting apart from me. haiz.. feel like taking a long break. searching of my future. i feel so lost. i'm like a bird. keep on flying. but no destination to land. a place where i feel warmth to take shelter with. sometimes i'm thinking, in this world, is it true that, you have to give up something just to have something that you truly want. is this logic that even true. i feel so down. my life is just work and sleep. take pay, also serves no meaning to me anymore. i can't find a reason why i should even spend my pay. i used to spend on stuff that i feel that will make her happy, but now. times changed. man changed. everything changed. i feel like letting go everything i had. lead a life of no more colors. black and white suit best for me. i'm tired... a long rest might require. a long long rest.

2 more months to my 24th birthday. is it a quiet one or a noisey one. no one knows. if god grant me a pair of wings, i shall soar to the place i want. a place with no sorrows, no pain. no emotional scars. be a pure white bird. no tainted scar. just a simple flying bird.

it's painful. a good example is, "when u are waiting for a bus, a cab that you dun wish to wait for, appear." "you don't know where you want to head, no destination, but you know, if you take a bus, you will find happiness." "if you take a cab, you find no meaning. for bus gives u light and cab brings you to unpromising future"